Feeling rather down at the moment:(
Heather has for the past three nights not been sleeping. First night it was about 10 when she finally went to sleep, last night it was 11'ish, and tonight well she went to bed at 7.20 stayed asleep for half an hour or so and woke up crying. I went and gave her a cuddle, and after a while put her back to bed awake. She began to cry before her head touched the bed but I still put her down, said goodnight, and left the room. I have been in and out of her room for the past hour and a half. She is at the moment quiet - I think asleep. It is so draining listening to the sobs and going in and out. Poor Matthew can't sleep as his room is next to Heathers.
I think its funny that if another mum asks me what they should do with there child/baby I put my work head on and usually have some help or advice but when its your own children it's not so easy.
It's my birthday tomorrow (I am 30 something). I have bought lots of cakes for both the staffroom and the class. What a strange thing to do, where did it start? Is it just a school thing or does it happen elsewhere?

Well, touch wood and all that - Heather has really taken to her bed and loves it. She looks so small in the bed but I remember saying the same thing about Matthew.

Today is our 9th wedding anniversary. It has gone so quickly and has been the best part of my life. I remember when we got married people said we were too young, we were 25, but we had been with each other since we were 16. I don't regret one day of being with Ian. Thank you for 9 wonderful years and 2 wonderful children. I love you always and forever.

My little baby is sleeping in her first bed tonight. The bed arrived today and I was too impatient to wait until the weekend for Ian to do it, so I put it together myself. It seems like a big step - our baby has gone and a very cheeky little girl has replaced her. We had an awful time getting Matthew in a bed and spent a few very unpleasant months trying to cope with knowing that each night he would not go to sleep. We even turned to our health visitor for help, but she was hopeless. After months of trying lots of different things it just happened one night - he went to sleep and he has been wonderful ever since, so as you can imagine we are a little apprehensive tonight although I have to say she has been up once and had a play with her toys. Ian sorted her out and she is now fast asleep.

I really think there should be compulsory parenting classes when you become pregnant (I know this would never happen but I can think about it in my ideal world). Somebody should let you know how hard it is going to be. Don't get me wrong, I love my children more than anything but sometimes its hard.

How could I forget to tell you, my new toy, my pride and joy, yes my car - well some little monster shall we say has scratched it. There are always children playing outside and I sometimes very politely ask them to move and they do. Well the other night I went to put something in the bin when I noticed a big mark on the front passenger door. When I cleaned it I was so pissed off to realise it was a scratch. Coincidence or not the children had just been playing outside. As I didn't see them I cant do anything about it. But I will now be the nasty lady who chases them away if they even come on the drive :)

Well I survived my first week back at work. It wasn't that bad after all.
Matthew was indeed not happy about his fish and would like some new ones, Hmm...still thinking about that.
Most people who read this also read Ian's site as well (SimeWorld) and will know about somebody using pictures of Matthew on their site without our permission. It is not the first time this has happened. I tend to agree with Ian on this one and am absolutely furious. Ian is looking into what can be done.

My two nephews made their Holy Communions today and had a party afterwards in my Mum's house. We had to be in church at 10 a.m then back to Mums. The invites to non-family was for 1 p.m. By the time quests arrived I had enough. I may just be a miserable sod but I don't like family get togethers when there is drink and children. It just doesn't mix, especially as my family like a drink, shall we say. I couldn't wait to get out of there. Matthew ended up with a bump to his eye and a nose bleed which made him quite fed up and wanted to go home - Hooray! We had an excuse, the moment was seized, and out we got. Only to remember the whole thing is going to be repeated for my sisters wedding.

Happy Fathers day to all you Daddies for tomorrow. I am sure there will be lots of ties and socks about.

What a day ! One of the kids in class decided today would be 'Hate Teachers Day' and has therefore spent the morning doing his best to get the rest of the children on side, which isn't that hard. After refusing to work and lots of chances he was very reluctantly taken to the chill out room.
Maybe a little late as we only have five weeks left but I am finally going on a restraining course. It is much needed and possibly too little too late but there you go.
I found out today a child who I used to work with is in hospital very ill with a brain tumor we told the class today they seemed fine with it, asking lots of questions.

Matthews goldfish died last night - he has had it for about 4 years. He doesn't know yet, but I will tell him when he comes home. Also as if that wasn't bad enough, his new frosty mug is broken. He wont be a happy bunny :-(